Alcoholics Anonymous

There are no fancy graphics on this page. Just the raw and basic facts.

Welcome to my page of AA. My name is Nancy, and I am an Alcoholic.

Thanks to my Higher Power and the fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous,
I am sober One Day At A Tyme. I have been continuously sober since March 16, 1991, 3:01am.

My life before AA is a blur to me. I began drinking at the age of 12. High School? What is that? I have no memory of it. Gone. Wasted. Pissed it away with a jerk named Jack Daniels. Quaaludes and Jack Daniels. It is a wonder I am still alive. Many tymes, I should have died, but by the grace of my Higher Power even then... I was spared. Getting sober was NO PICNIC<----!!!!!

I had a coffee commitment FOR ONE SOLID YEAR. I was there 1 hour before everyone came, setting up tables and chairs, putting out the literature, and of course... my "stand your hair on end coffee." How I hated that at first. I remember saying; "F--- This," for the first couple of months. But I also remember the people holding onto me as I shook in my chair for the first 90 days. They listened to me call them names for giving a shit if I lived or died... as I didn't care.
I wanted to die.
I really did.
Life without drinking???????
UNTHINKABLE.

WRONG!

I am typing this out with tears in my eyes, as I feel like I did in that chair sharing on my 1 year anniversary. At that meeting, I got up out of my chair and hugged all those old timers that held me, and watched me throw up in fear and withdraw. They were my lawn mowers... and I their green grass.

To anybody that thinks... IM NOT SAYING THAT YOU DO... but if you think, you might have a problem with alcohol... there is one link on this page that might answer a few questions in your mind. There are many places to go to for help... but this is the only one with the toughest, kick your ass, in your face, shut up and take the foot out of your ass and put it in your mouth answers.

Why?

Because the ball is in your court. YOU<--- make the choice to seek help. No one can drag you there. No one can MAKE you get sober. You must go there yourself. BUT<-- once you get there... you will NEVER be alone again.

AA is a selfish program. It teaches you how to do it yourself, yet, at the same tyme, you have the Fellowship at your disposal. Who and what is the Fellowship? You, me, Tom T., Gary R., Brenda H., Linda E.,... Us. Everyone who walks thru the doors of an AA meeting... is... The Fellowship.

Take step one here Alcoholics Anonymous.

Keep coming back... It works if you work it.

Below are the steps I work on a daily basis, One Day At A Tyme.

The 12 Steps

1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable.

2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

5. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.

6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.

10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.

11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

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Me if you need to talk, I will always answer, always.

Nancy Imelda Schafer