I need to get rid of these thoughts
I need to be able to do the right thing
I know my words are harsh
They must fall far away from his ears

Forgive me for not knowing how to live in love
with a junkie

Forgive me for hurting
when you used to look at me and think to yourself-
"Man, I love that woman, she's all I need"

Now you look at me and I can read your thoughts-
"What the hell am I doing here-I want to get high"

It hurts

I know you hurt
but damn you! It's not easy for me either!

Your attention
is elsewhere
everywhere
but on me

I don't care if you're not using heavy drugs

You're on the step down drug

You ease your conscious by whispering
"I need it to help the jitters and the shakes"

When will it end?

When will your jitters become sighs?
when will your shakes become hugs?

Why can't I hold you and make it all better??

Don't you know that I love you?
Don't you know
that I need you?

I'm scared
I am so scared
I am going to lose you

Know what pisses me off the most?

I can't 'save' you
I can't even help you because
the air is full of distance

Why are you out there?

Please come back to me

I miss you

It is all up to you
do what you must

Do what your heart tells you
go back
to us in the beginning

I
Love
You
I
Am
So
Mad
at
you

Just give me your hand
give me anything!

I think I'll crawl in bed beside you
and jump into your dreams

You're dreaming that you're drowning
in a world of yourself
look closer and you will see
you're taking someone down with you

...and it's not a pretty sight

But you know what??

I know you will get through this

If you don't, I'm afraid
it will be the last straw for me

Cause
I'm tired of fighting
just to feel normal

You son of a bitch...
I love you so much