Standing by this wall I watch with jaded eyes
I can't hide the fear that tears at my soul
My throat closes as I see you pass by
but I can't break out of my wooden role

The other children hear the piper's call
and dance to his beat, in a perfect row
I want to follow, but I cling to my wall
jealously aching, watching them go

And if you asked
me to dance right now
And if you said
you'd show me how
I'd want to dance
To give you the chance
But I'm afraid I would stumble,
trip and fall
and everyone would point,
laugh and call
So I'll just stand here by this wall

I long for acceptance, colour from gray
I try to act like it all doesn't sting
I will myself to take just that one step away
towards happiness that freedom would bring

I wonder what it would be like
to be able to take what life deals
To ride on my bike
without these training wheels

And if you noticed
me standing here
And if you smiled
a welcome dear
I'd want to say hi
To give it a try
But I‘d stutter and blush and
mumble and stall
Then turn away and walk
down the hall
So I'll just hide here by my wall

Through rose coloured glasses I see,
but everything seems swirled,
tinted black as I rage violently
shut safe in my own little world

I'm being dragged down by this wall
into depths that close overtop of me
Wishing I had the courage to call
But knowing only alone I can break free

And if you said
you'd take me away
And if you said
you love me today
I'd want to love you
My wish come true
But I know I'm dreaming
curled into a ball
If I thought you'd notice
me at all
So I'll just stand here by this wall