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"Keri Jopplin"

" keri"

sweet dreams and memories of days long gone
remembering my life and loves gone wrong
i can't go back there's so much to replace
my dreams become reality that's hard to face
a secret so horrid, that sacrificed my youth
no one wants to hear or believe my truth
it's demeaning to ask or understand my belief
just listening and caring, is such a relief
maybe i was born to be plain white trash
to be taken for granted and burned to ash
a survivor of incest but still victimized by all
so many to name and so few to call
should i start over, renew my life again?
move to a new town, look for a new friend?
to know her before, a picture of perfection
look in a mirror now, i see another reflection
i ask her to speak, she remembers his lies
she wants to tell all but then only she cries

"daddy's girl"

little girl what happened in your small world?
were you daddy's desire, his little girl?
a woman now your life has been lost,
fantasies and pleasure were taken at your cost.
just a small favor of love for your dad,
you gave into trust, you did not know bad.
you wanted affection and love like the rest,
instead you were shamed, denied with jest.
isn't it sad that some don't understand?
come stand beside me, i'll hold your hand;
ease away your pain, your troubles, your fears,
i'll hold you gently and wipe away your tears.
what would you do if you could turn back time?
replenish your youth, undo his ugly crime?
then you could laugh, be happy and play;
let's hope it gets better, because it will never go away.
does god listen, when he hears your prayers?
will it be different when you climb the stairs?
will you remember after your death?
no more "daddy's girl," with lust on his breath.

"child"

one, two
sex abuse is true
three, four
it can happen next door
five, six
they do it for kicks
seven, eight
early or late
nine, ten
they commit a sin

" the confession"

who are you? what gives you the right?
to seduce lil' children, night after night
you take our trust and you turn it around
painted on your face the tainted smiles of a clown
you're wicked and evil and a disgusting pervert
doesn't it matter to whom you've hurt?
not only your step-daughters but your own lil' girl
you've altered our lives-you've destroyed our world!
you took our dignity, our love, our pride
would you feel better if we all had died?
we're your victims of pleasure that flooded your vein
you took our virginity and gave us pain
you know what you did; we all were there
you didn't love us nor did you care
well…now you're suffering and soon you will die
alone in your grave just you a your lie
i won't feel better when this happens to you
you must tell all and not just a few
that you're at fault- that you're to blame
you hold the truth the wrong the shame
godbless your victims of incestuous pray
down to the devil is where you will lay!
confess to your maker and everyone all
tell the truth now, before god places your call

"the other dad"

bless me father but have i sinned?
for my life's in turmoil never to end
crushed by its silence our lives in hell
to terrible to speak of…no one to tell
reminiscing my youth that has slid on by
for year after year, it's hidden this lie
childhood memories, the burning of desire
his hands upon me-left imprints of fire!
the impression of love it continues to burn
a child in fear with no where to turn!
it's altered my life his crime of passion
never it changes, this life-long fashion
that's lasted a lifetime and furthered its toll-
my stepdad he was in his fatherly role
i feel abandoned and lost, dirty and used
for my love and trust, i was sexually abused
why was it i god, i ask in prayer?
why wasn't i loved? didn't anyone care?
who is this child? where has she gone?
is she still hiding, thinking shes done wrong?

"terry"

to my husband, my life, my lover, my friend
love me now and again to the end
faithful to us, always be true
keep me so close, air can't pass thru
stay and embrace me till death do us part
never you stay, too far from my heart
in exchange for this, what can I give?
you're my heart, my soul, and the reason to live!
my life for your love, what's better than this
ever lasting bliss, warm hugs and your kiss
touch and caress, is what i desire
love and romance, you set me on fire!
sweetness like this, it couldn't be wrong
life without you is empty and long
remember your promise of love forever
don't leave me now, tomorrow or never

" homegirl"

dedicated to my friends for i had a lot
popular with them all, our horses and our pot
we're simple teenager's… just some kids
playing strip poker and removing our bids
sleeping over at barbara's, even at gaye's
with all night girl stuff, we're silly at play
riding our horses we planned and schemed
beverly and laura-lil' cowgirls with dreams
never knowing my secret, my childhood story
listen to me now and i'll tell it with glory
i have this prayer and i want to be heard
hear me now as i spread my word
a normal childhood wasn't to be
for he kept fondling and messing with me
as i write my truth, i'll give it a rhyme
blame it on george, it is his crime!
then came the boys, my first one Joe
he never guessed even he didn't know!
once i was a good girl and i didn't flirt
deep down inside, i felt like dirt
i dressed funny, big clothes were a bore
even in a dress, i felt like a whore
i was bold on the outside and strong as a bear
for my protection cause i didn't want to share
so go tell someone so they'll tell another
you never know it could be your brother
and come stand beside me and know my fears
just hold my hand and help catch my tears

"god's promises"

weep not for me but for those who are living
as i'm in a place of love and peaceful forgiving
laugh as we have laughed, my family and friends
shed but only a tear as you are saddened and on mends
your hearts are all broken, but here's mine to lend
our paths will soon cross, this very way again
pick a dandelion for you, make a wish and then blow!
forget me? never! as in your hearts i'll grow
a lil' more closer to you each new day
this you will know, cause it's what I pray
forever and ever we'll never be too far apart
as god keeps his promises, right next to his heart
know i will miss all and love you the best
i'm here in Heaven now, with my lord at rest

"the key"

i'm alone like a bird locked in a cage
because of his lust and sexual rage
chained and imprisoned to myself i grieve
why can't the feelings and memories just leave!
dead ends are turns that I find in the end
plenty to talk to but no one called friend
like a disease you don't know-what to say or do
so i'm the sickness, that makes everyone blue
tattooed like birthmark as i'm marked for life
it's hard to raise children or be someone's wife
they all go with me to my cruel place
watch moma hurting with tears on her face
please god help me i continue to pray
these are the escapes i dream of today…
the slashing of wrists or a gun to my head
a bottle of pills upon going to bed
waiting and watching as time goes by
am i believed or is it my lie?

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Since Est. 12-1-96

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