"Good Friday"

Beloved Lord, this day you died for me 
This day you trod alone to Calvary 
Where are your friends you had not long ago? 
That strewed your path with palms 
Where're you'd go? 

They all have left you here alone to face 
The jealous mob you called your chosen race 
They mocked, and bound, and scourged you 
They said "Oh, hail Great Jew." 
They pushed and jeered and hurt you 
If only Lord they knew. 

That love had made you do this 
That mercy could endure 
That being poor, you could be rich 
And being rich, be poor. 

And so today, that very day 
When blood oozed out That side 
God took the key, unlocked the gate 
And Heaven opened wide. 


"Little Girl"

Little girl, so innocent and pure 
Living a life you couldn't endure 
You took all the pain and kept it inside 
Looking for a corner in which you could hide. 

Little girl, wanting Daddy's love 
Emeshed in the web that he wove 
Knowing it was wrong but feeling it was right 
The tears that were shed all alone in the night. 

Little girl, the years have been so sad 
Looking for something that you've never had 
Looking for answers in all the wrong places 
Looking for love, but finding just traces. 

Looking for love that you sought in the past 
Feeling that this time you might make it last. 
But now my eyes are open, at long last I can see 
Just what it is I have to do to finally be free. 

I'm going to take my life back 
For this too is my world 
I'm going to have to let you go 
My sad eyed little girl. 

Too long I've carried you around 
Too long I've felt your grief 
Too long I've cried without a sound 
The pain beyond belief. 

But now that I have grown up 
I've got to let you go 
Goodbye my own sweet little girl 
And yes... I love you so. 


"A Mother's Love"

A mother's love is heaven 
A mother's love is hell 
She can let you go and free you 
Or she can lock you in a cell. 

A cell where you'll remember 
All the love she didn't give 
And you'll search the whole world over 
For that love so you can live. 

You'll think you've found it every time 
That someone says "I love you" 
But eventually you'll come to find 
He puts all else above you. 

The path you walk is strewed around 
With broken hopes and dreams 
And yet somehow you're holding on 
When all inside you screams. 

How could you do this to me? 
How could you turn and go? 
I love you! I hate you! I love you! 
Still God I need you so. 

I will not fight you anymore 
I've given up, you've won 
Your worn out, played out memory 
No longer will be sung. 

For now that I have grown up 
I no longer need the child 
Who bore my childhood grief for me 
And caused me to run wild. 

I'll say hello to women-hood 
And the life that lies before me 
A sad goodbye to my inner child 
Will free me and restore me. 

To be what I can finally be 
To reach for skies of blue 
To find the love inside of me 
A rainbow shining through. 


"Crazy Glue"

Once I was happy 
Before I met you 
And got myself together 
With an ounce of Crazy Glue. 

And once there was a time 
When I thought the sky was blue 
And in my magic kingdom 
There was room enough for two. 

A time so long ago forgot 
That even Crazy Glue must rot 
Till seeping out each pasted pore 
I lay undone there on the floor. 


"Another Way"

The night falls all around me like a blanket 
The stars all fade and slowly start to die 
And oh my heart has gone so still and quiet 
It's just another way to say goodbye. 

The sun comes up and sheds its wintry lightness 
But never does it seem to shine on me 
My life has lost its color and its brightness 
And pain becomes my own reality. 

There was a time when once I thought you knew me 
But now your wintry chill just blows right through me
I only have a few more tears to cry...but then 
It's just another way to say goodbye.


"Loving You"

This pain in my heart's like a razor 
'Causing my heart to bleed 
The tears in my eyes are like raindrops 
Falling on all your misdeeds. 

You tell me you love me, then hurt me 
When I need you, you always desert me 
You call it love and I call it pain 
Why stay around when there's nothing to gain 
I want so to go, but still I remain... loving you. 

I pray every night that He'll free me 
From this hell where no one can see me 
So lost in your world and feeling so numb 
Not liking this person I've slowly become. 
A person who's split in so many parts 
Picking up pieces of her broken heart. 

I try so hard to reach you 
I want your love so much 
I want to hear it in your voice 
To feel it in your touch. 

How long can I keep holding on 
Feeling the pain from twilight to dawn 
This torment that my soul goes through 
From loving you...From loving you. 


"The Price"

The stars fall from the sky devoid of brightness 
The moon becomes a shadow of the night 
Dark is creeping up the morning's lightness 
The tears that gather steal away your sight. 

The rose has lost its color and its beauty 
No longer can you smell its sweet perfume 
For loving you has turned into a duty 
And life is now more lifeless than the tomb. 

I wish we could go back to the beginning 
I wish that we could buy back yesterday 
When loving you seemed so to me like winning 
And then became the price I had to pay. 


"Addiction"

I'm addicted to your love my love 
I'm addicted to your touch 
You're more to me than heaven above 
And I need you oh so much. 

I'm addicted to your smile my love 
I'm addicted to your voice 
And even if push should come to shove 
You're still my drug of choice. 

You've taken my heart and torn it apart 
You've made me cry so often 
Yet you can mend this battered heart 
With words so falsely spoken. 

To leave you now would be to me 
Like tearing off my arms 
And I haven't the will to set myself free 
Of your all too treacherous charms. 

I've given up my life to be 
The part of you unknown 
But even when you hold me close 
I feel so all alone. 

For you can never give me 
What isn't yours to give 
And I can never hope to be 
The reason why you live. 

I've got to break this habit 
Someday, someway, somehow 
I've got to get myself back 
The time to start is now. 

I've got to say goodbye to you 
Though it may break my heart 
I've got to make my life anew 
And make a brand new start. 

And if in the process of finding myself 
I leave you far behind 
Then that's your chance to find yourself 
So you're no longer blind. 

And in the end it's going to be 
The way it's meant to be 
No longer need I live in you 
I'll be addiction free! 


"The Ultimate Price"

You've nothing for a heart but stone 
And you deserve to be alone 
You think you're perfect and oh so nice 
But everyone knows you're made of ice. 

You're really dead, you're not for real 
Yet people's hearts, from them you steal 
One day you'll have to pay the price 
And what you see won't be so nice. 

And when your body's as dead as your heart 
And from this world you do depart 
Don't look to God to call for you 
'Cause Satan is going to carry you 
To the bottomless pits of hell below 
Where you'll finally reap just what you sow.


"The Journey"

Flying through life with two broken wings 
Making my way the best that I could 
Wondering why the robins won't sing 
Feeling my heart is made out of wood. 

Stumbling along so lost and so blind 
Looking for love I seem never to find 
Searching for sun, but just finding the gray 
The hurt and the sadness grow greater each day. 

Falling and falling, I finally hit ground 
I opened my eyes and looked all around 
The feelings inside me as yet left unspoken 
Are pieces of me that are shattered and broken. 

I stand at the crossroads, alone and forsaken 
Ahead lies a road, one that I've never taken 
Slowly, so slowly, one step at a time 
And so starts the journey on which I must find. 

That what could have been, can still be 
And what I could have done, still do 
The strength that lies within me 
The trust and courage too. 

I feel I'm going to make it 
I'll make this life my own 
No longer need I be afraid 
To stand out on my own. 

And when the journey's over 
If you're still there for me 
We'll start a journey of our own 
Together, you and me.