"can you handle this?"

Can you handle this?
After what I've done`
have you heard the story-
Or did you miss it?

Maybe I don't want to repeat it ...
I don't want to waste my time...
Maybe YOUR on my mind.
Maybe your just blind.
I could tell about some one like me.
Could you take that kind of heat?
Not knowing who it is .. but knowing it just might be ...

What you want it to be.
but oh well
who gives a fuck?
Never mind.
here is is ...
Me...
What you wanted to see...


No really.




"Dying inside"


I feel nothing not even hate,
you know it's a shame ...
do you even know my name?
I'm in the shade...
now and forever.

I'm dying inside
Dying inside
Dying

See dry tears run down my face, don't even have enough in me,
to really be crying
Tough love is what they say...
but I just fade away.
Suicidal tendencies...
nothing frees.
I'm as cold as ice...
Gave up on the fight.

I'm dying inside
Dying inside
Dying.



"maybe"


Divided by unseen walls,
your faith/religion won't let you pass...

But what if I want to bread them down?

and get the world out of this trance?



"The last time"

Can you hear my cry in the darkness
I'm yelling out for someone to trust.

But in this artificial, intoxicated world,
being raised high on a flag of pearl.

No one gives a shit about each other,
we used to love our selves...
We used to love one another.

yeah we used to.

The truth is a lie, that no one could subside,
I hide in myself, no one is left.

the last time I felt love,
It was rape,
The last time I felt hope,
it was hate.


"Wilting flower"

My flower wilts and dies,
the weed swallows my heart.
As I just sit and cry,
My insides torn apart.
The thorns prick my tender skin,
Think of what I could of been.
I could of been,
something big, or I could of remained the same.
But now I lie in vain.
Oh the things that could of happened if you never came.

I wish you hadn't came
I don't even know your name
God damn I wish you'd never came.


"before I go"

Just a few words before I go,
just some facts I'd like you to know.
About me.

The action's I wouldn't let you see.
the time I kissed you on the lips,
Oh how I felt so crippled.
I could of died then.
How awkward that would of been!
The softness of your thousand time colored hair,
I knew then I couldn't bare,
a day without you.

but I believe it's time you know the truth.
I didn't leave on my will,
I could of killed,
Just to be with you.
A thousand-and-one pills,
could never lead to the ecstasy,
of you next to me.
The way you live, love, breathe.
Thai, you complete me.

*But I am not your type,
I'm not ripe for your picking.
So, I'll leave now, with these thoughts in
your head
the petals fall aimlessly and miss the
bed...
without you.

I do what I gotta do.
and the truth is I gotta do it without you.
I tried,
but to upon no avail.
Thus I have no reason to stay here...
so goodbye.



"agenda"

Break me,
Until Imp gone,
You know you want to,
I dare you...

Hurt me,
treat me like a whore,
I want more and more.

Do me,
com on,
baby,
I want to see...

Hate me,
Break me,
down,
to nothing...

Love me,
you know you do,
Only the truth,
I can see.

Kill me,
Strangle me down,
let me drown.

I'm free.



"all I ever had"

I should of been there-
when you cried.
I just wish I would-
of tried.
I didn't know you where so alone-
and now I'm
empty cause you gone.

God, cant you give me one more chance-
to save her
God, she had a big future

Why didn't you tell me,
why couldn't I see
and now Imp stuck all alone.

Never though you'd die alone,
But now does it matter cause your gone?

you'd given all you had to give,
now please come back so you can live.

Don't deserve the pain you felt
don't deserve the emptiness you had
I just wish I could of helped

and now I see....
your all I ever had.


"to hold you"

To hold you close,
To know you scent,
To know you voice,
To make the choice.


"ag"


Do you even know that I exist?
Or am I just another face you'd missed?
Oh how I want to hold you dear,
Oh how I wish you where right here.

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