"Scars"

One scar for our love that had been so true,
Another for the memories I'm missing of you.
One scar for our friendship that has been torn apart,
Another for the slightest breaking in my heart.
One scar for the all the times that you had been there,
Another for my wishing that you were still here.
I have so many scars that you have given to me,
If you would come back, maybe you would see.
I hold back my tears when thinking of you,
I'll always remember the friendship we had, and I'm hoping that you will remember me too

"The Battle of My Life"

I had been diagnosed with OCD,
It was the worst thing that ever could happen to me.
My medication wasn't right, I became very depressed,
My whole life changed, I was so worried, so stressed.
I was distant thinking no one would ever understand about this,
My old life I had loved, there was so much to miss.
One day as I sat there in my room,
It filled with darkness, sacredness, and gloom.
I saw my life flash before my eyes,
No one could help me or hear my cries.
I heard two voices as I reached for the knife,
One said "Don't do it", the other said "Die."
As I listened to the second voice, I slit my wrist making no noise.
I looked down and I started to cry,
Because that's when I realized I wanted to die.
I told my friend everything that next day,
She took me to the counselor, said it'd be OK.
They had me call my mom, told her I wanted to die,
I got so scared when I heard her cry.
She took me to the emergency room,
I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital, "Sarah is crazy", my schoolmates would assume.
I was released within a week,
Coming home, comfort I did seek.
But instead when I returned to school,
No one talked to me, I felt like a fool.
Being so open with my friends, I thought they'd still stay,
Instead it just scared them and pushed them away.
I made a mistake by telling a certain friend,
I thought that she'd keep my secret 'till the end.
But she had told everyone, I had come to realize,
When I walked into school, seeing so many pairs of intense, staring eyes.
So I threatened her in an aggressive way,
She had done this to me, now she would pay.
But as I thought some more, I decided enough is enough,
I would take away that barrier and not be so tough.
We listened to each other, talked things out,
There was no more conflict, no more doubt.
Since my 7th grade year I've come so far,
And when things get hard I just remember that times can get better, as bad as they are.
For all the people who ask about this I won't admit,
What I did, I just sit,
and think about what would have happened if I died,
I think of all the things I would've missed out on, and again, I cried.

"I Have A Secret Crush On You"

I've never even talked to you, I do not let my feeling show
I want to tell you how I feel
So your looks I won't have to steal
So look strait into my eyes, and tell me what you see
I hope that you one day you will notice me
If I could show you the way I feel I have a secret crush on you, and I'm aware that you don't know
You could realize what I'm saying is real
I like you so much I cant even express
If you don't take me then I might be in distress
Its driving me crazy, cant u see?
I wish I had the courage to let my feelings free.
I cant wait until that day I am brave enough to tell you
So then you can want me the way that I want you
But until then I have to be happy enough with just hearing your sigh
Even if I deny it sometimes, I know my heart is living a lie
But I'm not ready to tell you, and I'm not sure if I ever will
But I can't seem to get over you, I have a secret crush on you still

"My So Called Friend"

I thought that she was my friend,
That she'd stick by me until the end.
I am guessing that I was wrong,
I thought I knew her all along.
She has changed so much this past week,
It was my boyfriend she was out to seek.
Just like she wanted she took him away,
When I heard I had so many bad things to say.
Everyone says to forgive and forget,
But they'd change their minds if this person they met.

"When I First.."

When I first saw you I loved your smile
and the way you looked at me too.
When I first talked to you, I loved your sweet voice
and your sparkling blue eyes too.
When I first hugged you I loved the way you smelled
and the feeling of being held in your arms too.
The only thing I didn't love was saying good-bye to you,
I will miss you just being there, and everything else about you too.

"She's The Only One Who Could See.."

Everyone tried to understand,
But they couldn't, it was like she was in her own land.
One with black skies and rivers on blood,
And it seemed like in her house there was always a flood.
She walked around with a sad look on her face,
And slits on her wrists, it was such a disgrace.
Everyone else was happy, and it seemed like she was the only person,
Who could see what was wrong with that world they were in.